Silent cry

it pains me to see you with her
it pains me to see you happy with her.
it pains me to see you talking to her.
it pains me to see you at ease with her.


it hurts when i see you both laugh
it hurts when i see you look at her.
it hurts when i see you approach her.
it hurts when i see you both talking in the foyer.


i don't know what to do.
to smile or cry.
to hide or run away.
to pretend i'm not affected.


i don't know what to say.
to say yes or no.
to talk or keep my silence.
to ignore what they say.


it hurts to know that she can make you smile.
it hurts to know that she can make you happy.
it hurts to know that she can speak your language.
it hurts to know that she can share your passion.


it pains me because i know it is wrong to feel this way.
it pains me because i know i can't make you love me.
it pains me because i know there can never be us.
it pains me because i know there are too many walls between us.

Many things I love about you

it is lovely seeing you today.
it is lovely seeing you smile.
it is lovely hearing your voice.
it is lovely hearing you laugh.


i love the way you look at me.
i love the way you look away.
i love the way you close your eyes.
i love the way you gaze at me.


i love the way you serve me.
i love the way you care for me.
i love the way you touch me.
i love the way you thank me.


i love the way you support me.
i love the way you listen to me.
i love it when you don't know what to say.
i love it when you steal a glance and look away.


i love it when you say you're lonely.
i love it when you say you're tired.
i love it when you say nobody cares.
i love it when you say you're scared.


i love it when you speak your strange accent.
i love it when you share your corny jokes.
i love it when you share your dreams.
i love it when you share boring things.


it is lovely meeting you today.
it is lovely talking to you.
it is lovely watching you.
it is lovely having you.

Because of you

because of you i learned how to love.
because of you i learned how to open my heart.
because of you i learned how to be patient.
because of you i learned how to wait.


because of you i learned what's right from wrong.
because of you i learned how to be strong.
because of you i learned that there's no perfect man.
because of you i learned that i am no pedestal.


because of you i learned how to understand.
because of you i learned how to fight.
because of you i learned how to support.
because of you i learned how to comfort.


because of you i learned how to be a woman.
because of you i learned how to control my emotions.
because of you i learned how to be vulnerable.
because of you i learned to be still.

Goodbye my love

how can you say goodbye to someone you love.
how can you say goodbye to someone you care.
how can you say goodbye to someone so sweet.
how can you say goodbye to someone you'll miss.


how can i turn my back on you.
how can i move on without you.
how can i let you go completely.
how can i go without looking back.


i know this season is ending.
i know my mission is almost done.
i know i should have the courage to step out.
i know i should let you go.


goodbye my darling.
goodbye my friend.
goodbye my sweet.
goodbye my love.

Wishful thinking

the sight of you makes me smile.
the sight of you creates unexplainable feelings.
the sight of you makes me want to lose control.
the sight of you creates dreams of our future.


how i long to be with you everyday.
how i long to talk to you the whole day.
how i long to be your true friend until the end.
how i long to be your lover who understands.


i want to kiss away your pain.
i want to caress your face when you're tired.
i want to hug you so tenderly.
i want to wake up with you beside me.


i hope you love me as much as i love you.
i hope you miss me when i'm not around.
i hope our future will be revealed.
i hope this time will come.

My Beloved

i am your child.
i am your bride.
i am your princess.
i am your dearest.


You are my Dad.
You are my Love.
You are my King.
You are my sweetest.


i am created in Your likeness.
i am saved by Your grace.
i have a destiny to fulfill.
i have the greatest love story to tell.


Your love comforts me.
Your love changes me.
Your love has forgiven me.
Your love has set me free.


i will wait for You.
i will persevere.
i will endure.
i will finish the race.



"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life." John 3:16

The heartcry of a child to her Father

i'm fading.
i'm drifting.
i'm sliding.
i'm falling.


will you pull me?
will you save me?
will you hold me?
will you catch me?


i'm struggling.
i'm compromising.
i'm stuck.
i'm lost.


help me to trust You.
help me to obey You.
please pull me out.
please show me the way.


“The Lord reached down from above and took hold of me; He pulled me out of the deep waters” Psalm 18:16

Come to me

i can see your loneliness.
i can feel your pain.
i can see your doubt.
i can feel your despair.


i want to reach out to you.
i want to ease your pain.
i want you to know the truth.
i want you to see hope.


i can see you're lost.
i can see you're wandering.
i can feel your regret.
i can feel your uncertainty.


i want you be in my world.
i want you to find your purpose.
i want you know that your years will be redeemed.
i want you to be secure of who you are.

i want you to know that there is ONE who heals.
I want you to know that there is ONE who forgives.
i want you know that HE loves you.
i want you to know that HE is waiting for you.

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." Matt 11:28

A declaration

will you stay with me?
will you guide me?
will you hold me?
will you love me?


i will be here.
i will comfort you.
i will be your strength.
i will be your friend.


will you laugh with me?
will you walk with me?
will you hold my hand?
will you kiss my head?


i will laugh with you.
i will walk with you.
i will hold your hand.
i will kiss your head.


i will be you friend.
i will be your confidante.
i will be your number one fan.
i will be your cheerleader.
i will be yours forever.

i wish

i wish you're here.
i wish you're there.
i wish you're mine.
i wish you're in line.


i wish i can say what i want to say.
i wish i can look at you the way i want to.
i wish i can hold you without hesitation.
i wish i can love you with conviction.


i wish you can say what you want to say.
i wish you can look at me with honesty.
i wish you can hold me endlessly.
i wish you can love me unconditionally.


i wish we share the same passion.
i wish you are where i am.
i wish we walk in the same direction.
i wish you love Him more than you love me.
i wish you're the one.

Last chance

you sought me.
you looked at me.
you talked to me.
you followed me.
you run after me.


i hide from you.
i looked away.
i kept my silence.
i kept myself busy.
i run away.


you stop seeking.
you stop looking.
you stop following.
you stop talking.
you stop running.


i wondered why.
i miss you.
my heart is aching for you.
i saw you with her.
my heart longs for you.


i realized...
i'm in love with you.
is it too late?
can you love me again?
i'm in so much pain.


one afternoon
i took a chance.
i saw hope.
you said you will come.
i saw you from a far.
i took my last chance.


you held my hand.
you placed your arms
on my shoulder.
i looked at you.
you smiled at me.
you looked at me.
i touched your arms.


i took a chance.
our story begun.

The battle of the mind and heart

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everytime i see you ...

my heart leaps with happiness. i love you. my all is yours.
my mind is telling me to stop. don't be hasty. be careful. he will just hurt you.
my heart is telling me to love you without hesitations.
my mind is telling me to never listen to my heart because it is deceitful.
my heart is telling me to take a chance with you.
my mind is telling me to be weary giving my heart away.


my heart sees the goodness of your heart.
my mind sees the folly within.
my heart sees the child in you.
my mind sees your immaturity.
my heart sees the beauty of your being.
my mind sees a lost man.


my heart says he loves you.
my mind says he doesn't.
my heart says he is happy to be with you.
my mind says he is just fond of you.
my heart says he is waiting for you.
my mind says he is waiting for someone else.


when will this end?
the battle of the mind and heart.
who will win?
my mind? or my heart?


" The heart is deceitful above all things, and it is exceedingly corrupt: who can know it?" Jeremiah 17:9